tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1818125631590936896.post9125984862117472346..comments2023-04-13T14:59:02.835-04:00Comments on LunaTechChick's Random Thoughts, Rants & Musings: Does Anybody Know How The Story Really Goes...LunaTechChickhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10225723179804025294noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1818125631590936896.post-51881820903556485432017-04-04T16:13:12.565-04:002017-04-04T16:13:12.565-04:00Hey hey Evelyn! I used to show up to every onc app...Hey hey Evelyn! I used to show up to every onc appointment armed with printouts from this article & that....And have since stopped doing that. Yes, as the years progress, "the fear" takes more & more of a back seat, until I get an ache or a pain or anything unusual or weird. Or have to show up to a mammogram.... But I don't believe it's ever going to completely vanish. But, everyone's cancer is different, so Dr Google is really no help in my opinion. All doing that ever did for me was scare the bejeezus outta me.<br /><br />And, as the years progress, people won't ask you "how are you" in regards to cancer....people won't talk about cancer with you at all most times. After the second year, for me, it just doesn't come up much anymore....<br /><br />Thanks for the compliment! You're sweet! Thanks so much for reading & chatting with me =) <br /><br />xxLunaTechChickhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10225723179804025294noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1818125631590936896.post-46367421176631280162017-04-04T09:13:32.232-04:002017-04-04T09:13:32.232-04:00Olé, Kimberly! Evelyn from Madrid again here!:-)
...Olé, Kimberly! Evelyn from Madrid again here!:-)<br /><br />I feel things the same way; I sometimes wonder if this uncertainty, this doubt and shade of fear will keep gnawing at the minds and hearts of all women who have had bc forever?....I don't allow myself to brood over it for too long or too often, but still, every few days I can't help myself from checking in google the usual stuff, you know....statistics, articles about long-term outcomes per type / stage / treatment response etc....My onc laughs at me about this, he says that I know about the bc more than some colleagues of his hahaha...During the last check up, I mentioned to him something I had read in an article about a study on the long-term outcome during a follow-up of 24 years, and he said "Why don't you just read a thriller or a magazine instead of all these articles?". It was a joke, of course, but I felt like answering: "I would give a lot to just be able to read thrillers and never feel the urge to look up at a medical article in my life again"...<br /><br />Is this fear/uncertainty feeling getting weaker with the years? <br /><br />One thing I have noticed in me since the bc diagnosis is that I am over-sensitive about people asking me how I am. I don't like it, because it is impossible to take in in the light casual way of before bc, even though I am aware that most people do not mean anything particular when they say "How are you doing?"...Always a brief suspicion crosses my mind that they do not say it in the sense of "hello", but in the sense of "how are you doing regarding what you had? Are you all right?"...and this brings back the thought that there is a new normal and things will never be the same as they were before. But this is how it works now, and that's all to it!<br /><br /><br />...Yes, yo DO look cute with the hat!:-) Beautiful in a gothic-rococoish way:-))<br /><br />Hugs<br /><br />EvelynAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1818125631590936896.post-68727814824474256652017-03-28T19:14:58.507-04:002017-03-28T19:14:58.507-04:00Love you too, Mom <3Love you too, Mom <3 LunaTechChickhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10225723179804025294noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1818125631590936896.post-36899661163900562532017-03-28T08:46:50.966-04:002017-03-28T08:46:50.966-04:00I love you my beautiful, strong, talented and tota...I love you my beautiful, strong, talented and totally unique daughter!<br /><br />MomSandra Davisnoreply@blogger.com