Soooooooooo....y'all still with me? Yeah. Sorry bout that long break from postin. Some folks worry that when I drop off the bloggin map, that it must mean bad things are happenin. BUT, please let me assure you that nuthin could be further from the truth. In fact, it's the exact opposite. We've just been super busy Livin Life!!! Yay!!
Ok, I do have a confession to make though. I have been lettin myself get a bit too carried away with anxiety in the last couple of weeks. Ok, pretty much ever since Dr W opted to NOT run the CBC / MP labs last month, cause for the first time, I left his office without knowin that my blood was "beautiful." BUT, I say to you dear readers, that I am through with beein / feelin that way. I had a very nice friend, who is in the medical profession, say some things to me today & the lightbulb just totally came on. Finally. Yes, we reach a point in our recovery where certain tests/labs/scans are done less & less & less. And the farther out we get, even less & less stuff is tested & watched out for. And this is a good thing. And what I should take from that is this: Dr W sees all kinds of cancer all the time. And he's (apparenly) not worried in the slightest about me right now. I look fine. I feel fine. Blood has been beautiful for right about 3 years. And the Oncologists don't want their patients to live a life that's just consumed with cancer, thoughts of cancer, fear of cancer, etc. Especially when you're one of the ones lucky enough to have beaten it. (And beat it, I have. I have beat the ever livin shit outta that bullshit!) No. Rather, they want us to get out there & get ON with Livin Life!
|43 yrs old-2 1/2 years post chemo|
So yeah, been kinda busy livin life, which included my birthday. I turned 43 this month. Normally I do a Birthday post, but really didn't have much to report, cause we were kinda busy wrappin up stuff for a Banquet to honor our movie actors. And we've been watchin our favorite summer tv shows, workin on scripts for new projects, havin lunch with friends & just generally enjoyin a bit of a slow down to just enjoy the simplicity of havin a pretty decent life to be livin in. Because, (& I can't believe this is just now occurring to me) to do otherwise is not livin. Not at all. In the words of Jeff Lynne -ELO: "It's a Livin Thing...It's a terrible thing to lose." And I'm not losin another minute to something that's over & done with.
Don't get me wrong, I totally will become a complete (typically me) freak when September rolls around. Now that Dr W has given me 4 months till I see him again, looks like I will see every-single-doctor-of-every-kind all within a 10 day stretch in September. And that's fine. Let's get all the worry/panic/anxiety all over & done with all at once, rather than spread out over 6 - 8 weeks, as has been the case over the last 3 years. I think it's completely normal & natural to have those feelings when you see these kind of doctors. And I can also tell that, the farther out I get, the less & less that is & it really does get easier. (Yeah, remind me of that in September, would ya?)
Today, as I type this, it is the Summer Solstice. The longest day of the year. First day of summer. Most hours of daylight. So when I drove by this field of sunflowers, I just HAD to grab a pic. Sure do wish my phone cam could even come close to doin justice to these fields & fields of Sunflowers. As far as the eye can see...
So again, sorry I've not kept up with bloggin much lately. Nothin wrong.