And sometimes we have knee jerk reactions in response to that hurt. And sometimes we regret it and correct it. And sometimes, we don't.
So it's been a tough week or so around here. No, nothing to do with my bc, but it was enough to send me running totally away from the internet and online activities. Most people who know me, know that I live way too far away from my family than I'd like. Like 1,000 miles. And most people know how much I've loved technology and most especially Facebook and Skype for really helping to bridge those miles and make being so far away easier. Well, sometimes not easier...sometimes it's bittersweet.
Anyway....just had a whole bunch of emotional stuff collide all within about a week - a big life change that was well under way that came to a screeching halt, loss of a family member and seeing how it affected my mother, missing my family, and pretty much just wishing we could make the impossible happen, plus some sad, sad things in the news, and I was just on major emotional overload. So I took to Facebook and declared I was going off the grid for a bit. Yeah. That lasted less than a week. For all the things I have been not so much loving about social media lately, there were many more things I missed about staying connected with so many people I care about and who care about me back.
During those few days I avoided the internet (and even the news), I did enjoy not having my heart yanked from one emotion to another. And I reflected on lots of things...especially as I approach those bc anniversaries that I continue to recognize, year after year. (Times FIVE this year, btw.)
|Do I look pensive? I am.|
I'm feeling much, much better about most things. But some things I'm not gonna feel better about until I can finally do something to change the things.
So hold on, hold on.......