Crazy busy time of year. O has been & must continue to work work work.
Fun family time is over.
Post-big event let down. Nice to see the last 8 months of life altering, relationship rockin, round the clock hard work result in nothin more than a flash in the pan.
Post-cancer paranoia. I haz it. Not that I wasn't already a paranoid freak before cancer, but havin had it has just apparently enhanced every shitty quality I have & magnified them by a gazillion.
No end in sight to the crazy business. This is actually supposed to be a good thing.
Air Conditioner compressor is dead. Waiting for service dudes to come replace. They promise they will today. Of course this is a holiday weekend with very hot temps expected.
Can't attend great lunch meeting with O & our newest national client because I'm waiting for the above mentioned service dudes.
Yucky, weirded out feelin from stayin up too late (& probably also from havin 1 too many cocktails).
Realizin the fact that I don't do enough for others & I'm too self absorbed.
The realization that I'm SO very lucky to have the kind of problems that I have & that things could (should?) be SO much worse, & the fact that knowin this has done nuthin to pull me outta the funk I'm in.
Ok....so yeah...will do a post about my visit to Dr W later when I'm done with my Pity Party.