The Bitch Is Back... (TMI WARNING)

She goes by many names...Aunt Flo, Miss Monthly Visitor, Miss Red, Dot, Ladybug...After an almost two year absence, yes, the Bitch is Back....I think.....well, not sure just how back....so this is what happened.  *This is where the TMI stuff is, for you squeamish readers.*

I started seein just a trace, teensy tiny, teeny bit of spottin.  I was all like, mmmm'kaaaay...Am I havin a menstrual cycle?? Kinda thought that biz was pretty much over.  Especially since Dr W's FSH test in May showed I was POST menopausal....(but then the other hormone showed ovulation)....Anyway....so I called the ob/gyn Dr D....decided to go ahead & move up the sono appointment from September to ASAP & make sure there were no Tamoxifen related issues.  And also re-ran that FSH hormone test to see what's goin on here.

So I go for the sonogram. And I broke my New Year's Resolution to remain calm & not be a total weirdo freak in front of my doctors. Ugh...so embarrassing!  But everything looks fine.  Same ol same ol, except for the fact that it appears that I had recently ovulated. He & the tech were all like "Hey look at that, she ovulated!" 0.0...  Next day I get the phone call that yes, the FSH still shows I'm POST menopausal...but the number is goin down...a tiny bit...Down is the direction toward PRE-menopause numbers....& then there's the whole issue of the ovulation.  How the hell do you ovulate if you've completed menopause???

So here's what Dr D is thinkin....it appears that perhaps my ovaries are "wakin up" after havin gone through all the trauma of chemo & cancer treatment.  And maybe I will expect some irregular visits from ol Auntie Flo...Hormones could be just all over the place for awhile.  Which would explain a lot....Bitch is Back you say?  Mmmm, yeah...just ask O who's referred to me as a "moody bitch" twice in the last month. (And he'd be SO right, too.) 

Sooooooooooooo long story short....had them copy Dr W on these findings.  Dr W will probably run it again next month.  So still have a bit of a flurry of docs to see in September.  And this "Milestone Mammo"....ugh. 

On the way to get tats

Ok, subject change.  My friend & I went & got matchin tattoos.  I call em our "BFF Tats".  It's a design with an eternity symbol that's open on one end...together you can see that they would "connect".  I know..."Awwwwww.....ain't we sweet?!" 

Yay!

You Ought To Be In Pictures......

Soooooo, I survived the sonogram.  Yeah, I was very nervous.  But my ob/gyn doc, Dr D, who knows me so well...(inside & out! Er..sorry! LOL!), made sure to say right away that the uterus looked good.  The technician followed that up with "REALLY good" ..she went on to say it & the ovaries look "better than most Tamoxifen takers."  YAY me!  And apparently he can tell from lookin at the sono that I'm NOT in menopause.  I had suspected Tamoxifen had sent me right into menopause, but he said he can tell by lookin at the ovaries that I SO am not.  I just have a few symptoms that mimic it because of how it blocks the affects of the estrogen.

Anyway, the sono was quite uncomfortable, but not terrible.  And took a few minutes.  And apparently these parts ain't exactly located where *I* thought they were.  And she took a bunch of pictures from all different angles of meh parts. All this rootin around with that wand was about on my last nerve.  Another minute of that shit & I was bout to be all like, ok....you oughta have enough pictures by now! UGH!  

But they said my uterine lining was quite nice & thin...which is good.  And we'll do it again in September.  Dr D did say this: so long as I continue to feel & experience the same ol same ol, then I can expect the next sono to be same ol same ol. So it appears that the Tamoxifen & uterus are gettin along just fine so far.

Next up:  Labs tomorrow for Dr F....still watchin that stupid parathyroid hormone bs. (I sort of forgot about this one!)  And still tryin to get back  into my cardio.  Need to just DO IT right away when I get home NO MATTER WHAT! Which didn't happen today...

Better luck tomorrow.