Anyway, so to catch up real quick...all oncology appointments are done for the next six months. And all the doctors say I'm doin so good. So that's a relief. Hopefully I can successfully put my cancer crap away until September when we'll do it all again, complete with a mammo.
OMG what a shitty week we've had...bombings at the Boston Marathon...And it appears the whole point of the bombs was to cause human death, injury, disfigurement & suffering. What the fuck is wrong with people?! (As I type this, the second suspect is "down"...first was killed earlier today.) Then a pregnant woman was murdered, a car chase, arrests in the Kaufman County murders, & then the tragic (apparent accidental) explosion of the Fertilizer Plant in West, TX, which leveled the town & rattled homes up to 50 miles away. I felt it. O felt it. He came flyin down the stairs all like "WTF was that?!?!" I thought it was another earthquake. But it was the explosion.
All week the images coming across the television & the internet are just so awful. Too graphic. Too much for me. And it makes me think. About stuff. Everything. Again, another opportunity to assess my life. (As if breast cancer wasn't opportunity enough, right?)
And I'm finding that tryin to steer life in any certain direction is futile at the mo. Some days I think I know what & who I
* "I don't know how to tell you all just how crazy this life feels. I look around for the friends that I used to turn to, to pull me through. Looking into their eyes I see them running too..."
Anyway...yeah....kinda feel like we're runnin on empty a bit. But this time of year I probably always feel like that.
I need a vacation.
I need to make some changes.
* "I don't know where I'm running now, I'm just running on.
Running on, running on empty. Running on, running blind..."*
[*Running On Empty, Jackson Browne]