Right. So the 3 month appointment with my oncologist, Dr W is tomorrow. And I'm (as usual) nervous. But not as much as in the past. I've been just "havin a feelin" that I've totally beat this bs. That it's all gonna be good. And at the same time, I'm all weirded out about goin into this appointment all confident & not a bundle of nerves like I usually am. I think it's because, in my mind, goin in there anything less than bein all nervous means I'll probably get bad news. So, if I go in there all typically nervous, I should hear the same thing I always hear. Right? Cause I usually go in there all nervous, shakin in my shoes. And he always says everything looks good/great/beautiful. So I guess it's a bit of "expect the worst & hope for the best". Superstitious much? Right. So how much of a nut job am I? Bein all weirded out about not bein all weirded out about this appointment.
Or I'm just a headcase.
Wish me luck!