Thursday, September 29, 2011
Look What I Can Do!
What else is goin on.....hmmm.....well, I keep on gettin crappy cancer news from my friends. Have I mentioned lately how much I fuckin HATE fuckin cancer? FUCK! Anyway, yeah, another person at my insurance office job has a recent diagnosis & a surgery next week. My other friend at the office is in the process of gettin a second opinion from a new oncologist to find out WTF is goin on. And then there's this. And this. Normally I L O V E to read this awesome lady's posts. And she's even encouraged me in my "battle of the bullshit" as she calls it, through emails & Facebook & stuff. But these latest 2 posts, tellin of her recent diagnosis of Stage IV distant spread to the bones? Yeah. Gutted to learn this. It just seems like every time I get a bit of good news about my cancer situation, I learn of someone else that I care about gettin bad news about theirs. I mean, my insurance office job is very small. And now, 50% of the staff have/had cancer. And I'm supposed to remain positive. Right.
But this most recent visit with my awesome surgeon Dr V, was more like catchin up with a friend. Well, ok, maybe not exactly like that, but I wasn't all kind of freaked out for a change. In fact, we were sharin stories & doin a lot of laughin through the exam. So, that was one medical visit I actually enjoyed. Well, except for the exam part.
And the trial of Michael Jackson's doctor is all over the news. And it's a reminder to me, because he passed away on the day of my biopsy. So hearin all about what happened & all just is makin me sick & sad. Sad for the loss of such an icon & really awesome entertainer, & sick cause it does conjure up those feelings again...the awful dreaded feelin of waiting to find out if you have cancer.
So anyway, wow, this post is all over the place. But that's me lately.